Only one that I have, only one that I need.

You see,

I was the reason she stopped working in banks when I was born.

I was the reason we lived so hard afterwards.

Maybe even I was the reason we were hated.

And I'm trying to be the reason that carves the smile on your face.

The reason you shed your tears of happiness.

The reason you glad to have me.

And she is my mother.

Happy Mother's Day, 

Raja Bahyah Binti Raja Harun.

Heaven, and now down to Earth.

 Dear life,

was it something i did?

or am I born to this world just to be a pure disappointment.

And no matter how much I tried to ran away,

depression you were always there.

And I can't shake these overthinking out of my head.

I'm tired of thinking, 

tired of being stupid.