59 - too young to feel old

I haven't been here for a long time.

And if you saw me here,

it means something's wrong.

I always lied to myself

how I can be happy

how something good will happen

time goes on

but it wouldn't wait for me

now 2 years past

and I haven't done anything big.

I don't know where to go.

I don't know what to do.

I'm wasting everything

I shouldn't exist.